Like I said in my last post, Jason is away for three weeks. Today is only day 10 of 24 and I am starting to lose it a bit. Anyone in this industry (TV Commercial Producer) knows that the days are long, and to actually make a commercial takes on average 3-4 weeks. So when he gets a call about a commercial shooting in Los Angeles, I can bank on him being gone for this long. When we met he traveled frequently but so did I, and we usually would meet up in LA. Then the travel tappered off once I had Ryder, but when Siella was about 4 months the travel picked up again and he’s been going ever since. We are extremely grateful and blessed that he has the work but leaving for these long periods of time is extremely hard, on all of us.
I was a bit panicked with this time because Ryder is off from school this week and I want to make the most of his vacation time. I originally thought I would escape freezing NYC and take the kids to Cali and stay with Jason but just found out he is actually working through the weekend. So for this week we have a playdates lined up, movies, ice skating, bowling, and a trip to the museum all in between my work and my birthday. Not so bad.
I know there are a ton of moms out there experiencing the same and can totally relate. I will be the first to say “it is flat out hard”. You are the only person day after day doing all of the breakfasts, lunches, dinner, early wake ups, bath and bedtime routines, and there is no recouping from it. The weekends for me are the absolutely hardest. It makes me sad when I see the dad’s in my neighborhood doing things with their children on the weekends sans the mom. It’s just a zero break.
And the lonely factor also sets in. Every night once the kids finally go to bed, I am left by myself. I am not going to lie but the first few nights are fine because I actually catch up on my work but then that tends to get old, real quick. As much as Jason and I try to connect over the phone; the time difference definitely doesn’t help much. When he is waking, I’m in the middle of my day and then once all is calm over here, he’s in the thick of it.
I’ve started to notice it is affecting the kids a little. More so at bedtime when they ask for their Dad. We do facetime as much as possible. But I know its hard on them and they miss him. As much as he is gone, this is something no one can get “use to”.
So is there a solution to his travel, not really. We move to Cali and he continues to work his 12 hour days, travel elsewhere, and be away from my family and support system, probably not. But do cherish the moments when he is in between jobs or working in town and try to do as much as we can as a family together. The time apart makes us all appreciate one another that much more.